If you say that you have Śraddhā, then honesty demands that you have Saṃyama also.
Saṃyama means—remaining stable in your Śraddhā. Saṃyama means being honest about your Śraddhā—that is Devotion.
What kind of devotion is it that cannot absorb you completely? Lack of Saṃyama means—you are not fully absorbed; you are half in and half out.